Sometimes it's hard to not get bitter. Any slave out there who has been close to a Domme will understand what I mean. I suppose if you follow forums where Dommes speak more freely you might also understand the darker side of this business. The term time-waster is used so often it loses it's punch, like 'taxes', 'bad drivers' and other annoying things that are just a part of life.

I love my life and I love what I do. Most days time-wasters don't bother me too much. I just chalk it up as a part of the job or a part of life I don't like and focus on the positive. Once in a while though one will go above and beyond and I kind of snap.

The latest loser-of-the-week played a convincing song-and-dance about flying us to Europe for a session. As I went through my usual screening asking for references and a tribute of some kind to show he was for real all seemed to be going in the right direction and I mistakenly allowed myself to get excited about the upcoming trip.

A side note here: I have had several trips payed for by wonderful slaves. It DOES happen. Unfortunately for every one that comes to fruition there are about 100 time-wasting bull shitters.

The reference this guy gave was for a Domme who was on holidays this week. I was suspicious that he knew this and chose her on purpose thinking she wouldn't respond. She did take the time to get back to me which may have surprised Mr. loser-of-the-week. It seems that although he has sessioned with her once he had jerked her around on offering a trip that never materialized. He also told her he had done this sort of thing before but was unable to produce any real references for her (or me).

I assure you that each of the slaves who paid for my travel could use me as a reference. If he had in fact done this before and he was safe, sane and serious, he would have a reference.

So that's the end of that...but I'm angry. Angry at him for wasting a day of my time emailing back and forth and I'm angry at myself for allowing myself to become excited before I had finished screening him.

I am digging deep today to focus on the positives and in particular on Dave, who ironically emailed me out of the blue this morning. It was wonderful to be able to balance things out with Dave, a slave who has followed through with everything he's ever said he would do. He flew us to Houston for a session and then came here to Vancouver. His gifts have been thoughtful & generous and he has been a perfect gentleman throughout.

All slaves should aspire to be the best slaves they can be...which isn't complicated. It just means being the best human being that you can possibly be.

Check out today's clip: "Fancy Footjob". I demonstrate how small my feet are by holding up an american $1 bill and compare. For some reason a lot of guys get the imrpression that I'm tall in my video's, especially the giantess ones (Gee, I wonder why?). I like to remind my fans that I'm super petite, just barely 5 feet tall and 100 pounds. My feet are US size 4 which is one size smaller than where most ladies shoes start. It's very hard to find sexy shoes to fot my child-like feet but I've done pretty well over the last few years.

On another note, I'm on my way to get my hair done. I love getting my hair washed, cut and styled. I could fall asleep having my hair blown dry and played with. Very much the primal animal inside of me that likes to be petted. Prrrrrr!

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I love this video SO much! It's awesome to hear someone SO enthusiastic. Sure, it's funny and easy to laugh at this guy...but you've got to admit. It IS a beautiful rainbow *smile*. Just try to watch this and not smile.

Wanna peek inside my mailbox? See some of the interesting messages I get daily:

#1. Hi Dear Mistress
I love your clipstore.Can you please make a clip where you kill your virtuel victim by throat standing.You can try some socks and pantyhoses before, and you'll ask to your slave which one cut better his breath and you finally deside that whe you wear black pantyhoses you get more heavy and in this way you choke him out easy and you kill him.You can do it with a teddybar if you want.
I hope you did like my scenario.
Best regards.

Re: #1: Teddybear? Why would I want to kill an innocent teddybear?

#2. Thank YOU !  As a new site member,  I'm more than captivated, satisfied, thrilled and enthralled by YOU.  The combination of your beauty, intelligence, heat and sadism is truly unique.

#3. After thinking about your new video "Lethal Ass" and giving it a considerable amount of thought and debate (about a half of a second!!) my verdict is H E A V E N !!  - Heaven should be so wonderful.

#4. --love your cuck videos,  always masturbate all over my own face now,  my mistress has me cross-dressed,  stare at my painted toes,  throw my legs over my head,  yell at myself and urinate and jack-off all over my face,  her boyfriend likes to make me lick his tight ass-hole, then puts the mouth spreaders on--the clamps forcing my mouth open,  then proceeds to urinate and masturbate all over my face,  i waggle my tongue and yell at myself...like i yell,  toilet,toilet,toilet,  porn addict,  useless toilet,  love when he sprays all over my forehead and it drips down my face,  mistress makes me walk around like that,  constantly verbally abusing myself....

#5. Dear MistressT,
 
  I wish you a good day
 
  I joined your site only two days ago and i'm already seriously hooked by your charms
  You're so great and your work is the nearest approach to my most intimate fantasies like forced masturbation, hypnosis
  I wonder if you do email training and at what conditions
  I hope that you answer this message because you are becoming very important in my life
 
  All my respect for you and best regards, dear Mistress